April 29 (thursday): Thursday sees me out staying my welcome hanging with Azmei at lunch. Today the weather is shite and I am not able to wear my suit and as a result I feel a scruffy, pikey fuck. I'm beginning to notice how intimidated and vulnerable I am feeling. At lunchtime I drop the Atkins and go Italian sandwich (this afternoon Ivan gives me shit for not going to Nando's with him). In the evening is another uninspiring session with the counsellor from which I come feeling slightly better and relieved. To celebrate on that and the fact it is almost payday I splash out on Chinese chicken wings in Asda. Things seem to begin improving immediately, especially when Sarah texts me to see if I want to go out next week.