April 27 (tuesday): Tuesday is very bad. I rush a job which means I'm not doing the best of jobs on it. My already knocked confidence hangs in balance as I brace myself for grief. It doesn't come but I do become paranoid at every glance from said partner reviewing my work.

At lunchtime Azmei and I actually have lunch and a conversation. Maybe she felt bad because I described her as a "crummy friend these days". Fair comment. Still, I'm flogging a dead horse.

I do however buy the best trousers in history from T K Maxx. They do turn out to be sleepwear but I never had any intention of wearing them out and they feel so good.